What is this world?

I think the thing that is upsetting me the most right now is the beautiful Sarah Everard. When the full horror of her abduction came to light, I was beyond shocked and upset. I can’t even begin to think how her family must be feeling. I haven’t been able to sleep at night. I worry about my safety. I worry about my kids’ safety. We are supposed to be able to trust people in power. People in uniform who are there to protect us. To think that her abduction was actually witnessed and nobody thought to say anything because they thought she was legitimately being arrested by a police officer is just downright upsetting. And I’m very bothered that now women are supposed to start resisting arrest and questioning police officers. Yes, please put the onus on us to make sure we don’t get abducted by disgusting pervert rapists. How is this supposed to make us feel? How does this make men who are just doing their legitimate jobs supposed to feel when every time they try to do legitimate police work, they get questioned. I’m in no way trying to make this about men, but does this undermine every single man who might actually be a nice guy? Are women just supposed to fear all men? What about poor Sabina Nessa? What women just can’t walk through the park anymore? I walk home at 10pm through a park some nights of the week to get home from tae kwon do. What should I do? Drive the five minute walk? I can’t even get fuel! Make Chump come and pick me up, therefore waking the kids up and getting them out of the house? Do I carry mace? Do I carry pepper spray? Do I just say a silent prayer before and after? I don’t understand this world.